Flawlessly Imperfect

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Posted on 17-04-2010. Date of post soon to be changed.
Thoroughly edited for easier navigating on 12-05-2010

Quick post mostly for my own reference? (And to gather your pity *_*)

May:
- 30th Essay's deadline A
- 30th Conversations A+

June:
- 1st LL: written&oral A
- 5th Translating/reading -> 15th A
- 6th Theory of Culture C+
- 6th Korean A+
- 11th Grammar A+
- 13th Japanese (main): written&oral A+
- 18th Religion A
- 19th Literature B
- 21st History A
- 26th Theory of Grammar - written A
- 27th Theory of Grammar -> 28th -> 27th - oral


So yeah, my timetable for June is rather filled up, lol. My joy and excitement know no bounds.

See you in July if I'm still alive by then~

SMTown Paris. ;;

I'm not going to bother here with the setlist, or chronological order, or anything like that. Instead this will be full of my impressions, special moments I managed to see, my feelings, opinions (that may or may not offend you) and such. And spazzing, lots of it.

I'd like to say - let's start by saying that this was possibly the greatest day of my live (and not kidding), but I'll start from the beginning~

( Replay replay replay~ )


We stood in the crowd for around an hour and then the concert finally began! It kicked off with f(x) and La Chata. ( Brand new love f(x) )

After Jung Sisters we got Shinee! ( Her whisper is the ring ding dong )

I don't remember who performed after Shinee, so I'll talk about Soshi~ ( Gee gee gee gee baby baby~ )


Suju! ( A girl in love )


So, now finally for DBSK, I guess?
( The way u are (I got you under my skin) )

And now for other stuff in general.

So first, the sound system. IT SUCKED. MAJORLY. It was fine at the beginning, starting acting up during SJ KRY's Sorry Sorry Answer (<3) and when Homin finally appeared it was already a disaster. From what I've heard on fancams, it didn't sound too bad but believe me, it was awful.
HOMIN SOUNDED LIKE CHIPMUNKS ;; Granted, I'd adore chipmunks to death if they only were more liked that and I'd really like to keep those particular chipmunks to myself (and they might just be my favourite kind, too) but still - chipmunks. It was bad when they sang but it was straight horrible during the talk. They didn't sound like themselves. Damn, I go to Paris for Homin and then I don't even get to hear their voices.

At least, the view was great (as I already mentioned before). I didn't even have to look at the screens, even when they were at the main stage, it wasn't necessary because I still saw them well. I caught myself looking at them a few times but as a whole - there really was no need. Especially when you had the real deal right in front of you. (Or not so right in front of you but still close and clear enough.)
So, even though I didn't look at them much, I did from time to time and when Yunho finally came out, they showed him very often. Clear bias, what can I say. (But I didn't mind it too much. Though I probably would if I weren't a fan and I was seated high and far from the stage or something.) And that's the thing I don't quite get - because really, the standing places were honestly the best. You were close, you had an amazinb view at the artists and a chance to interact with them directly. If I had a seat so high, I would just go down - there was more than enough place. (But then it would be unbearable for all, I guess.)

The atmosphere was good too. There were some fans that didn't seem too enthusiastic (like those girls that told us even before the beginning that excuse us, they need to breath, when we weren't even standing that close. So, excuse me, but there were lots of free space in the back - don't like crowds? Please, proceed that way.)
There were fanboys too~! :) I had some right next to me for some time (but I moved a bit.) One of them knew all the lyrics to one of f(x)'s songs and when Shinee was close he yelled 'TAEEEEEEEEEEEEEMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN' real loud. XD
There was also that girl that had a plushie with a letter attached and she wanted to give it to either Siwon or Donghae. She wanted Wookie to pass it but he moved his head as if to say that they can't take anything. (And they probably did which's ridiculous considering what happens during their Asian concerts. :/)

One of the sad things was how dark the audience was. There were really few people with penlights. (And no wonder if most of the people heard that they're not allowed :/) I really hope on the second day it was more colourful because people already knew the regulations are a lie.


Anyway, this might just have been the most amazing experience of my life. I'm not even kidding and I'm not sure if I care about the fact that it is a bit sad. ;)

Me and the girls were so mad, disappointed and sad when we couldn't stay for the 2nd day. They were selling tickets for only 40 euro! ;; Damn, if not for our flight and lack of money to re-book it, we would just go for it, damn the consequences.

So, I can only hope that we can really expect SMTown in German or UK. Hopefully this year and if not, then the next. And then, even if they announce only one date at first, we'll prepare for a longer stay. We'll take money so it'll be enough for another dates. We'll be ready. ;)


...I can't believe I really saw 83 line (and their sexy Bonamana moment) before they went to the military. It was one of my dreams when I stanned SJ harder but I dismissed it as impossible. And it actually came true. Omg.


I also guess that this night made me discover a few things about myself. (That yes, I am, indeed, a screaming, jumping and spazzing kind of fan, after all, being the main one, I guess. ;) If you know me, you probably find me a bit of a reserved person (or am I wrong?) but on that night I really lost some of my inhibitions.
(And positively surprised and shocked Yurete and Agata, it seems ;) After a concert they said that they had been worried that I wouldn't catch a thrown towel even if it smacked me in the face but I proved them wrong. Not with the towel scenerio, though, because, as I said, Sungmin has no sense of aim.
Well, I proved myself wrong. I didn't think I had that in myself ^^)

And SMTown might have just made me a stan of all present groups, too. (Or at least, I'm sure I'll pay more attention to them since now~)


And this is finally the end, I guess. (5,5k, lol) This took me so. damn. long.

I'll add something if I recall anything important/worthwile.

(And I'm going to write a second entry about Paris itself. But much, much later, lol. XD)

If anyone read through it - my congratulations. XD

Quite interesting and funny thing happened today. Two connected to each other things, to be exact.

So first we were waiting for our very-boring-classes and suddenly M. said something that surprised me - that most of the people from our studies hate S-sensei and we seem to be the only year that doesn't harbour any hatred towards her. I haven't heard that before so I couldn't believe but there were some fourthyears waiting for their classes near us, so M. - being his normal, sometimes very, very frank self - just asked one of those girls if they hated S. XD She joked if there was any diplomatic answer to that kind of question but eventually said that they did. She asked several of the 4thyears on our behalf while they were coming in and well, let's say that they were rather unanimous, lol. In fact, most of them were rather shocked how can we NOT dislike her. And they couldn't imagine how our lessons with her must look like since, apparently, in their classes sometimes they can't understand her. And those are some composition writing classes too so it adds to their dislike to her even more.
Personally, I find S-sensei to be a cute person but not really a good teacher. (Her lessons are one of the most boring that we have. That may have something to do with the materials we work on, though. Creepy/creepily hilarious videos from the 80s. XD) But I'd never guess that she's that hated at our university.

So that's the one thing.

After classes me and Emilka went to bathroom and coincidentally we met some of those girls there as well. While I was washing my hands, I heard them talking about something that immediately piqued my curiosity - how one of them wrote one of her compositions about Korean singers in Japan. Of course, I couldn't let it pass and asked if they were k-pop fans and the girl answered that yes, she and one other girls (named like me XD) were! Then she asked if I were and I said the truth. Then she asked what was my favourite group and when I (and E.) answered with 'DBSK' (and SJ for me) she procceeded with hugging me. XD Then while she was almost inside the stall she asked (with a hint of something harsher underneath and honestly, I'm not surprised) if I picked any side and I said that I didn't, though of course I had my favourites. I said mine and she gave me a thumb up and she said hers (who turned out to be no one other than our dear snarky maknae, Changmin) so I gave her a thumb up too. XD
And it turned out that S-sensei knows DBSK, too. (I joked that Jaejoong must be her bias. XD Don't why him. XD)


Yay for interested in k-pop senpais! :DDDD Scratch that part about k-pop, YAY for interested in DBSK senpais! Maybe they're not all that hopeless as current secondyears.

I tried to find her in our group on fb but she gave my only her nickname so, of course, I couldn't. But yay anyway 8D


So you could say that today was the day that marked my (and probably not only) first actual interaction with my senpais from Japanese Studies. XD And what an interaction that was. Worth waiting for so long, let me tell you that. ;)


And now I should finally get around to studying grammar, I guess. Given that I have a test tomorrow and I'm not really prepared too well for it. Too much of procrastinating during this semester.

Eh, I wanted to write an entry but now I don't know what to start with. XD

> Last monday there was a performance of a Japanese female choir in philharmonic. They sang so beautifully &hearts And they sang and danced in pink tracksuits at the end. XD When we were on our way home with Szczupak, Tać and Emilka, we came to conclusion that it's such an Asian thing - if the Polish choir (that performed too) came out in such outfits, we'd be like 'omg, so lame' but on them it seemed so cute and *_* Straaaange.

( Life )


Okay, fandom stuff.

I started getting to know Beast. I still have seen only several episodes of Beast Almighty but I rather like the boys. I still insist that they're a bit mentally handicapped but they seem so likable and cute. I forced mom to watch them with me (she protested a lot, because no, she doesn't want an another boysband, no thank you). She claims that Hyunseung is ugly but she called Yoseob quite pretty. Mom, where are your eyes? XD I love Yoseob (he may be my tentative favourite right now cause he's so adorable and seems awesome in all the gifs I've seen of him) but I wouldn't call him pretty. XD Anyway, she liked them, I guess. I'm interested in them too but it doesn't look like I'm going to become a big stan anytime soon. (Considering how slowly my watching them is going. XD) But I sort of like them, it's a start, right? XD

What else... Stanning Yunho harder and harder? XD That's me.
Evidence materials (once again - for my own reference, mainly):
> Musings tag on tumblr + skating!Yunho
> Thoughts on Before U Go performance from the 25th

What else... I really don't know.

Oh, I told tsunami_pl that I'll try making a list of Korean men that I'd maybe be able to call oppa and not gag doing this.
So.
1. Yunho. Kind of a given, I think?
2. Inati. But he was the first that I thought about. Idk, Inati's a bit different. I respect him in a different way than other k-popers.
3. David (Day Day). Because he's awesome.
4. Changmin. Only if I worked in SMEnt or something, though. XD

But 'oppa' is still a big no. I'm just not comfortable with connotations that this term has attached to it.

Anyway, I was wondering. Some people fantasize about being with their biases and what not and I like to think sometimes how it'd be to be able to go to a fansign event someday. Given that I'm studying Japanese right now, I think it's safe to assume that in a few years span I'll be able to use it quite comfortably. So let's say that theoritically I could say something to either Yunho or Changmin and be understood. But here is the thing - how do Japanese fans call them? (Call the members of DBSK, in general.) -kun? -san? Rather not 'oppa', do they? I'd be strange to call Yunho "kun" but "san" would be equally weird. Do they use just their names? But that would defy Japanese worldview. XD Hm, hm.


Okay, brain still refusing to cooperate. See you later. &hearts

Oh, and I started buying the Polish edition of One Piece! I love this title to pieces, it's good to be reminded of that.

Today was quite pleasant but let's start from the basics~

Pi-sensei has a conference tomorrow which means the test from kanji is pushed to the 23th~ That's a hell of good news! I thought I'd have to bide goodbye to my lucky streak but thankfully maybe not. Though I won't be able to take a break from studying because the weekend's off limits. ('Cause Tsu's coming <3)

( you'll be able to find the sound you were searching for )

And that's all, I guess~ I should try and get some studying done tonight. Would be nice. (Yeah.)


Shisus, DBSK's Stand UP!'s lyrics are so utterly stupid that I can't use them as a title. XD There's not a single useful line in here. XD Okay, found something that will do. XD

First things first - so, the finals. THEY'RE OVER. FINALLY. This week was a bit hard but I procrastinated a lot and then studied a bit and I think that, at least, I should not have to retake any of them. At least I hope so. That and that I won't be disappointed with the results. I know that I didn't do as well as I'd like on some exams, so we'll see about that.

So those who had this 's' thing already done, let's party?~ And for those who still have some exams - watch this. 8D



And now onto the more important stuff - tsunami_pl's coming to Warsaw in two weeks and she'll be staying at my place! <333 We haven't seen each other since the the beginning of August. ;;
I'm so happy <333333

And in the upcoming week I'm going to Szczecin, to visit yurete. We already promised each other educating in some k-pop groups - I'll show her (and Agata, maybe? I hope) DBSK and she'll teach me the Big Bang's way. XD I'm not jumping from joy at the perspective of a loooong journey across almost the whole country but what one won't do for friends. ;)


Hm, that's probably the most vital stuff.


Yesterday night (tonight? as in around 4AM anyway) I suddenly woke up with a nosebleed. Both my mom and Yurete said it must have been fatigue but I don't know. It's not like I stayed up all night every night (or at all if I had to precise) and yes, this week had been tiring but it's not like I didn't sleep or something. On the other hand, while I didn't feel explicit stress (as I rarely do) and seemed fine, maybe my subsconsious begs to differ and so maybe all of this did take its toll on me and it manifested in such way. Who knows. Anyway, it was strange. I can't even remember when was the last time I experienced a nosebleed - junior high maybe? high school?
I hope it was just some random single occurrence and that it won't repeat.

Ah, I'm so tired right now. I woke up even earlier than normally today, because I wanted to go home directly after the last exam, so I had to do everything that needed to be taken care of. And I didn't want to rush like I usually do. (And so, I arrived at the uni whole 40 minutes earlier XD) And now my eyes keep closing by themselves.


I've always wanted to donate blood and I'm not taking my meds now, so in theory I could try again, but honestly I doubt I'm in a right shape. It'd probably turn out that my homoglobin level is too low again or something anyway.

I lost my train of thought. XD

My new wallpapper <3

And here, have some stupidly laughing Changmin.

<3
How was your Christmas Eve? I hope good. :) I wish all of you will feel love and warmth today as well. (Because it's today that's the most important. For me, anyway.)
Merry Christmas <3


My Christmas Eve was nice. :) Evn though I didn't eat much the whole day before the celebration, I managed not to eat too much during the dinner~ We had some guests over (my dad's parents and one of dad's sisters with her husband) and together we slaughtered some Christmas Carols. 17, to be exact. And yes, we counted because it seemed like we finished all the songs too quickly and it turned out that in fact we sang a lot. XD
This year we haven't managed to buy a Christmas tree but we draped the new lights near the balcony windows and it looked quite nice. But it's ironic anyway because we had everything - a new stand for the tree, new lights, our pretty decorations knitted by mom several years ago. We lacked only the tree. XDD But who cares, Christmas aren't about some tree anyways. (Though it was the first time for us.)

In my family we have a deal not to splurge on presents so I got only a chocolate, some new tights and some money. My aunt seemed to finally remember that I kind of had my 18th birthday last year and she gave me some money too. XDD (She never does, usually and this time it wasn't a small amount, either.) What's funny that my sis who's had her 18th birthday on the 22th got less money than I did. XD

But it's so strange, this realisation. We're all adults now (on paper anyway). Hard to believe. Where has my childhood gone? XD


Well, now time for the meme. Ugh. XD

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

( Read more... )

Day Seven: Four turn offs.
( Read more... )


More later because I may (or may not XD) want to write an another entry tonight. :)

Once again - Merry Christmas to all of you. :) Those of you who believe in God - I hope you'll really feel His love tonight. And those who don't - I hope your day will be filled with good things and warmth only. <3

So, reposting this from twitlonger (longer indeed XD) and tumblr because here it should be the easiest to find it in the future. Should I want to remind myself what I've used to think in general and on that particular affair.

( Drama button )

And here I've found more of those articles: http://www.twitlonger.com/show/7iv2k2

EDIT.
I've re-read it and I see I forgot about one thing while writing it.

In the whole paragraph with all that 'all that joy...' was supposed to be something like this: "And they (the fans) completely disregard or maybe truly don't notice the consequences and implications that this statement holds when it comes to Homin. Like the fact that JYJ said that they still believe in five of them being together in the future overshadows completely their previous words".

Od ostatniego wpisu w fandomie nie zdarzyło się wprawdzie wiele, za to to co się wydarzyło, ma dla mnie dość spore znaczenie.

Najistotniejszą dla mnie sprawą jest debiut SuJu w Japonii planowany na następny rok. ( Stay with me )

Kuniec na dzisiaj. Dałabym głowę, że miałam więcej do powiedzenia, ale cóż, nic już nie pamiętam. Ale jestem pewna, że po tym weekendzie, będę miała masę faz i fandomywch zboczeń i przemyśleń. XD